For whoever finds this.................. July 14 2012
Shit sht shti shit..... I need to calm down... Something is wrong. I.. I.. Have a tail? Am I going insane, how is this possible? Fuck me I don't even want to look at it. It's constrained against my jeans, it hurts so much. Pulling it does nothing. Is this a prank? Even now it makes it's presence known as I'm sitting on it. Why does it have to be so massive?
Girth is thick and it reaches to a point of bristles and fur... Color is... White with black stripes or is it black with white stripes? This feels like a fever dream. I have to hide this from mom, she would be so mad if she saw this.. WTF! Why do I care about that! I have a fucking tail, why should I care what she thinks? At the same time, whatever is wrong with me hasn't done anything to mom yet.
I know this because she is still wearing her yoga pants as tight as usual. I would see if she had a tail. God the bickering and fighting is relentless with her. The thing that breaks my heart is I know she is a user. She uses me for money, this is something I have known for a long time. It's fucked up. Now not only am I stuck in this godforsaken place with my own mom, but I also have some shitty virus or disease.
I refuse to show her this. Even if it hurts keeping this tail uncomfortably hidden. Still wonder if I will wake up back in Pennsylvania and all of this was just some crazy dream. Also the food got restocked again. Are we on t.v or something? Is my mom in on it? I have so many questions..........