“Will you be happy to lose your mind?”
“To be a happy, braying animal? Yes!” I suddenly said with absolute confidence.
“But how can you be happy as an animal? You can’t feel anything!”
“Sure I can! I experienced it already. When I was with that herd of donkeys earlier. I felt calm, at peace...at home. There are so many things I could do! Pleasure would come from the feeling of grass and hay sliding down my throat. From braying, just to see how loud I can bray...from the touch of a jack!”
“But it’s mindless.” Roddy said.“ You can’t experience the joys a human does.”
I nod.“But Roddy, I already experienced the joys of being a donkey. They are much simpler...and more beautiful. There is nothing quite like grazing with your herd. It gives you a sense of belonging. Of being wanted.” I said with a smile.
“You haven’t been one yet.” Roddy said.
“That drive over here, when I grazed with the donkeys...for all intents and purposes, I was one mentally. My mind emptied with the first bite of grass. A donkey snorted in my nose, I snorted back in greeting. A foal nuzzled me. And from there I just...grazed. It was incredible.”
“You wanted to stay there didn’t you?” Roddy asked.
“Yes. It was incredibly hard to get up and leave.” I said.
“When you were among them, what else did you feel? Physically I mean.”
My new tail was swaying behind me freely. It was...a strange sensation. “Well nothing as real as what I feel now. But I felt wrong. As if I was in the wrong body.” Roddy nodded.
“Question, could you possibly cross your legs Sakura?”
“Why?”
“Your jeans and panties have split and ripped off.” Roddy said, “You do realize you’re nude from the bottom down right?”
“Actually, I didn’t.” I said, a slight itching beginning at the base of my tail. Roddy scooted back slightly.
“Doesn’t being nude bother you?”
“I didn’t even notice Roddy.”I said with a slight huff.
“It bothers me! Put something on Sakura!”
“But the clothes will get in the way of my tail! I don’t have any jeans with a tail hole.” Roddy grit his teeth.
“You want to finish changing don’t you?”
“Yes. I want to be a donkey...so much. And now that I know I can be one physically AND mentally...I’ll do anything.” I said earnestly. Roddy shook his head.
“I don’t understand...okay where were we with changing you?”
“What don’t you understand?” I asked curiously, wrapping a towel around my waist for Roddy.
“I don’t understand how you can want to be a dumb animal.” Roddy said. “You’ll never appreciate beauty again.”
“I don’t want beauty. I want...I want to belong. The feeling I got when I was with that herd. It was exquisite. I felt like I’d never be lonely again. It was more than I’ve felt with any human.”
“And you can’t belong with humans at all?”
“After that? I don’t want to. I want to be part of a herd.”Roddy nodded.
“Then let’s get back to how the donkeys looked. What next drew your attention to them?”