You make your way to your room thinking about what to do. Once your genitals are gone that's really it, nobody wants to loose their genitals to you, and without anyone to swap with it looks like you'll be sexless for life. You think about returning to the city like this, there's just more to miss at the clinic, in the city there will at least be far less to remind you of what you can't do anymore.
You look down at your sexless crotch, it feels so strange to not have genitals anymore, it's so alien feeling. You think about all the things you'll never do again; you'll never have sex again, you'll never be able to touch yourself, you'll never have a child of your own. It's all so terrifying.
To see if you can still do anything sexual you look at some porn. Looking at girls isn't a good idea right now, you just imagine being able to have what they have. Luckily you're bi so you can look at pictures of men for the time being. Mentally your still attracted to them but your body lacks any reaction, it's a strange disconnect being mentally honry but not getting physically aroused. You rub your crotch as hard as you can, no result. It's so horrifying feeling no pleasure from where you used to get so much from. You try and focus on your urethra, but that just feels uncomfortable. Feeling your nipples let's you masturbate, but no matter how long you try, nothing happens.
You then decide it's time to go home, they'll give you dirty looks if you go nude in the city. It's best to put on as many layers as you can and try to hide your sexlessness. You don't feel right wearing feminine clothes anymore, I geuss you really don't feel like a girl, you cry thinking about that, that everything feminine that you always loved being and taking part in was now gone to you forever.
You put on a large coat and sweatpants, it's a bit warm but it hides your lack of curves. You get onto the next trian for your city, it feels weird stepping out from the world of the clinic to the real world. Are people looking at you? They know you're from the clinic, do they know what you are?
If feels a bit weird to walk around in this body, especially if clothes. You're always feeling your lack of sexual anatomy.
You sit down and try to forget about everything. There's a girl next to you, she seems to be looking at you, at first you think she knows you're genderless, but soon its clear she's attracted to you. You realize she's pretty good looking, her slender form, her soft breasts, you get turned on, but soon you're reminded of the lack of anything between your legs. All the things you want to do to her, you physically can't do anymore.
You look directly at her and she blushes as says, "oh I'm sorry sir."
'Sir' she thinks you're a guy. Who cares, ma'am would be as inaccurate.