Shit! How am I going to explain this? I can't. And the smell? My room smells like a fucking farm yard. This is so embarassing. I'm just going to stay still and quiet and wait for him to go away. I really don't need to be seeing anyone just now.
Fuck! Why did I start that story? I didn't think anything like this would actually happen! I'm not even sure what I look like yet. Or what I even...am. At least my mind is still functioning the same but I don't feel like I'm human anymore. At least not fully. This is terrifying!
Seriously, he needs to stop knocking. It should be obvious I'm not going to answer by noe. We can meet up when I have fixed this. Whatever "this" is.
Ok, I need to know what I look like, even if I'm not sure I'm going to like it. I'll just creep quietly towards the mirror. I feel like I should be moving on all fours. Yes, that feels comfortable. Although I'm shifting so much weight all of a sudden! I was so light before compared to this.
Damn it, stop knocking will you? I'm not answering!
Okay, I'm moving slowly and calmly towards the mirror. Whatever I look like I'm not going to freak out. I'm NOT going to freak out. Just keep calm, deep breaths.
Stop knocking for fucks sake! Go away!
Don't get stressed. This isn't his fault and the front door is locked. Just stay calm and concentrate on the matter in hand.
Okay, I'm at the mirror. A couple more steps and I'm going to find out exactly what's happened to me, although I already have a pretty good idea.Am I ready for this? Just be brave Christina.
Seriously, stop knocking! You're making me even more stressed!
Okay, here I go...