You reach down between your legs and feel nothing down there. You're just smooth like a doll. Feeling it more you feel the strange sensation of pure smoothness. You have a little hole for pee and that's it. It's so unnatural to feel, just smooth skin, no holes, no arousal.
You still feel turned out though. And without genitals you don't know what you can do about it. You think for a momment to touch your breasts but those don't give off any sensation either. You're really not meant to feel any pleasure outside of pain, your body is built to take abuse.
Wanting to at least get some release you start looking at people hurting eachother. There's a clear separation between non consensual violence which is still seen the same way, and people using violence for sexual reasons. You look at a video of a boy slicing at a girl's belly, despite how horrific it is to your sensibilities, something about this is extremely arousing to you in a way it wouldn't be in your old body. You want this is be horrifying, but looking at these two sexless beings lovingly slice at eachother is so satisfying.
You want to reach down and mastrabate but you're reminded that that isn't an option anymore. Instinctively, you scratch open some of the scabs on your arms. It hurts but for some reason being hurt feels so good in this context. You start rubbing the blood on your face to further enjoy the pain.