She thought about her experience at the gas station, immediately after the park. One, she felt powerless. In the other...she won't lie, she felt kind of powerful. She was a grumpy, stinky little tot who talked down an adult like it was nothing. When she wasn't fighting everyone's perception of her, and instead embraced them, it was strange how natural it felt. So much so that Leah was actually considering...
She looked herself over in the mirror. She straightened up with her hands on her hips like a superhero, and the confident smile came with it. She slapped the front of her wet diaper, not feeling remotely embarrassed about her accident, mostly just annoyed. She couldn't believe it, but...she honestly wanted to stay like this. Forever. Dressing and acting like a toddler.
That was, of course, an absolutely absurd thing to claim: she couldn't just...be a toddler. Could she?
She thinks through the legistics. If she does, then her life would be a little complicated. For one...diapers. She's not going to pretend she won't use them, and that it will eventually lead to her potty training getting over written. She wouldn't really have a problem with it she realized---in fact, she's kind of excited at the prospect of NEEDING diapers---but she has to keep in mind others around her. Making other people deal with her diaper stink just cause she doesn't want to use a toilet anymore is not exactly fair.
Two: School. It's not like she could go back to high school dressed in a onesie, or raise her hand to say she needs a diaper change. Well, she COULD, it'd just freak everyone out, and as confident as she is...she's not sure she's THAT confident to just ignore literally everyone's perception of her (yet).
The only other option that would solve those two problems would be to go where toddlers go. From how desperately Tina wants to treat Leah as a baby, she thinks she could easily convince her to put her in daycare. And if she didn't want to stop all school progress (she'd still like to have a future, even if it involved diapers), she could work something out with doing her school work while in daycare. It'd take some work, but she could see it as doable. If there were one problem she'd have, it's be her fellow toddlers---she has no idea if she even wants to be around toddlers all day. She doesn't want to go back to being an insecure, pantypooping teenager, but she still prefers to interact with other teens. She'd also hate to just abandon Tonya, but she figured that shipped has sailed after her brother's birthday and Leah flat out ghosting her (which she still feels shitty about). She might want to act like a toddler, but she's not one: she can read, count, have intelligent conversation, all things that toddlers can not do.
And so it comes to this: tomorrow, Leah was going to a playground, where no doubt lots of other toddlers would be. She will take the time to hang out with them and see if they mesh well. If she does, great! She can move forward with her 'Tot4Life' plan. If not? Well, she might have to reconsider things.
Leah could feel her smile growing ten-fold. She never thought such a great thing could come out of such a terrible event, but she's incredibly grateful. She jumped into bed, excitement brewing in anticipation to the next day.