I am here! Where here is evades my thoughts, my mind is torn between a longing of someone coming for me and a deep lust. Today... I stand at the drinking place. As I drink the face of an animal is in front and to each side. It is hopeless to hide amoung sheep and goats. Any fool can see that I'm different.
"OH God, my mind wanders as does the herd of animals I hide inside." At one time I think almost human, and in a split second all is washed away by a lust, smell, need, feeling, or a sound. In each case I am driven by the senses' to react to the animal instinct.
"Instinct, I am impelled from somewhere deep within my self. My behavior seems ruled by another. I feel.... I.... Bleat... Bleat... Bleat... Bleat! There the the other goes again and sounds like some damn sheep. I am.. I am.. I CAN'T REMEMBER, I can't remember my name? This is just great, if I do get found I can't tell them who I am! Bleat... Bleat! There he goes again, my name... MY NAME! I don't remember my name, what the hell I can't even tell what I am, who needs a name?"
'NOISE, BLEAT.. RUN FOOL RUN SOMETHING IS COMING AND I FEAR...I FEAR!
"We all run together, this way and that. Hey, fear turn sniff the air, fear, I so scared. All of us are scared, but why? Men, Army men, waiving hands and srceaming! We walk they are behind, we fear!"
Ahead are?? TRUCKS! This is fine we have been found, the truth will be known, I am saved from???
Yes, Army truck but not friendly. The herd is loaded into stock trucks and driven back to the research station. The herd of over seven hundred, mostly sheep with white horns and a few large goats.
"We have been here for seven sun times, ah week I think. We are fed grain and the Army guards point and laugh as we do our daily needs and lusts."
"Private! Get these me back from here, I don't want these sheep agitated. Remind them that these were humans and many remember who and what they have become. Even tell them that I have seven hundred plus of them, I still might need a few more. So if I do I'm told the Amry is here to help in testing, maybe some of the guards will also join the herd?"
"I heard that, I see fear in the privates eyes as he looks at us down here in the pen. I feel the truth be known, that we are animals and this is the truth for us."