I think for a second about stopping what I am doing. Then I realize something. Whenever I would try to enjoy something at home, often something would interrupt it. The phone would ring, someone would come to the door, some annoying worry from the past or present would come back to haunt me or something else would happen that would keep me from truly giving in.
Now, it's different. Those worries are fading from my mind. I can give in and enjoy this without worrying about anything.
The heck with it I think, why go back to work and bust my ass off for decades before I can retire and enjoy such joys when I can enjoy them now!
Without a second thought, I plunge into the jenny, braying loudly as the sheer pleasure of the moment consumes me.