Alex sat for a moment on her bed, trying to sort out all that had happened, still unable to wrap her mind around the fact that she'd gone from being a sixteen year old boy to an eleven year old girl, even though her mind told her that she had always been a girl and never a boy.
"Crap," Alex thought as she tossed the stuffed animal aside. "Even my memories of being male Alex are vanishing."
Standing, she was just about to go and pick up the backpack when a odd sensation just below her abdomen, more toward her groin area, caused her to pause. Suddenly it dawned on her what her body was telling her and ignoring the backpack she hurried to the bathroom down the hall.
Her memories say she's done this since she learned to do it when she was about three or four, but for Alex, who still believes that at one time she'd been a sixteen year old boy, the idea of sitting down to pee is just a bit unnerving. There's the sensation of liquid leaving your body from a new location; a hole that is between your legs. And then after that, it's the idea of taking toilet paper and wiping your urethra to prevent odours and infection. All this is a bit unnerving for Alex.
Standing back in her room, she lifts up her shirt and stares at her chest. "When I was still male, I so wanted breasts of my own. Just to touch and squeeze and fondle." Alex thought as she looked at her A cup. "But now that I actually have breasts, I can't abide the thought of touching them. Mostly because of how tender and sore they are, but it's also something that is telling me it might not be very appropriate to do so."
Letting her shirt drop, she undid the buttons on her pants and pushed her pants down far enough to were she could just see the area where her privates where located if she had her legs closed. Gazing at the slit, Alex wanted to touch it, explore her nether regions, but again something inside her told her that doing so would be inappropriate. Angry, not liking what has happened, Alex pulls up her pants, buttons them and instead turns her attention toward the backpack lying on the floor. Opening it, she finds another surprise.
Instead of clothes, it is now full of school books and notebooks. Dumping it out on her bed, Alex thinks, "What the hell," but the only answer she can come up with it that it's spring break from school and she has a few take home assignments that need to be finished before she returns to school, which she realizes is the local elementary school.
Sighing again, she sits down at a combination vanity and desk and gazes into a small mirror sitting on top of it. Seeing the gold chain, she takes the locket from around her neck and unable to remember the word printed inside, she opens it.
Inside she finds two pictures, one of her mother and one of her father, which completely takes her by surprise because she thought there was a different picture inside. The need to remember the word is cast aside as Alex suddenly remembers that the locket was given to her by her late great-aunt Clara, whom her mother is named after. Hanging the locket up amongst her jewelry, she decides that maybe she'll look online to see if there is anything about people changing sex and gender just by putting on different clothes, gets up and leaves her room for the computer, which is downstairs.
An hour later, Alex is completely frustrated at the fact that, except for in Fairy Tales, there is nothing about people ever changing sex and gender just by wearing clothes that are more appropriate for the opposite sex and gender.
Sitting back in the chair, she is wondering where and how else she might search, when somewhere in the house a door can be heard opening and a voice calls out, "Alex, are you home?"
Standing, Alex puts the computer into stand-by and heading towards her mothers voice, she responds by, "Yeah. What's for dinner tonight?"
In the kitchen her mother is putting groceries away and out the kitchen window Alex can see her father carrying something toward the pole barn. Her mother turns to her and says, "We're having chicken. Are you exited about tonight?"
Alex, unsure about tonight and unable to remember exactly what she should be exited about, merely nods and tells her mother, "Yeah."
Helping her mother put away the groceries, afterward Alex tells her mother, "I'll be upstairs if you need me for anything," and then starts up to her room.
Inside, she takes the books and notebooks off her bed and drops them onto the vanity desk. Laying down on her bed, she cuddles up to one of her stuffed animals and silently asks herself, "What have I gotten myself into and how do I undo what I've gotten into?" But no answer comes and after a bit, she drifts off to sleep.