It had started as a simple Halloween costume. His sister, Heather, helping him for three week to not only dress as a girl, but explain how a girl moves and talks. And afterward, the thirty first, the enjoyment of going to a Halloween party with her and everyone believing Spenser, who had given his name as Kai, was a girl and not a guy dressed in drag.
Now, Spenser is fifteen and most of thoughts are hampered by the fact that it feels wrong that he was born male and has to live life as one. That it feels wrong that Heather was born in the right sex and gender and gets to enjoy being a female. And feeling this way, whenever he gets the chance, Spenser either nicks or buys clothes suitable for the opposite sex and spends his private time dressing up and pretending to be a girl, always trying to perfect his feminine look.
Moving through the halls of the Juniour High, he stops as he passes the Lost and Found box, knowing this to be a good source of collecting girl's clothing...the other being the girl's locker room, which he has snuck into a couple of times, but finds it more difficult because of Ms Bergstrum having caught him the one time.
Looking about, making sure the hallway was empty, Spenser nonchalantly walked toward the bin and taking another look up and down the hall, he began to sort through the various clothes.
At first he is disappointed that all he finds are items lost by males and thinking, "Clumsy fools," he almost gives up until a flash of pink caught his eye and shifting aside a hoodie and a pair of shorts, Spenser pulled forth a pink tank-top with two butterflies embroidered on the front.
Looking at the garment, Spenser has some doubt that it would fit him and hesitates for a moment before he hastily stuffed it into his backpack, down beneath his text books and notebooks.
Returning to his foraging, Spenser continued to dig deeper, knowing he is almost at the bottom of the bin and thinking, "There isn't anything else."
And just as he reached the bottom, he shifted aside a couple of shirts from PE, a book on playing the fife and almost stopped when he found yet another article of clothing; this one a pair of black, spandex pants with pink dots smattered across and what appeared to be a tear in the seat of the pants.
Closer inspection and Spenser thought that it wasn't a tear and that somebody had sewn the area so that it had the hole. Shrugging, telling himself, "Probably part of a theatre costume," Spenser figured it really became a problem, he just sew it shut and stuffing the pants into his backpack, he looked up and down the hallway, making sure he was still alone and breathing a sigh that nobody had caught him going through the lost and found, he started heading for the exit.
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Home, he dropped his backpack, kicked off his shoes and announced, "I'm home."
When Spenser received no response, he wandered to the kitchen and as he collected himself a snack of apple slices and a juice box, he noted the note on the refrigeration unit, hastily read it and shrugging, knowing his mom was working late again and his sister was at a friend’s house, he made his way back to the front hall.
Wanting desperately to try on the new clothes he just acquired, Spenser shrugged the feeling off and told himself, "No. They must first be washed," and pulling the tank-top and pants out, noting that they looked awfully small for a Juniour high girl, he shrugged and made his way to the laundry room, glad that he had convinced his mother a couple years ago to let him do his own laundry.
With the clothes in the wash, Spenser figured he had an hour and a half before they were washed and dried completely. Wondering if maybe he should spend that time dressing as a girl, maybe try on the bikini he had bought the week previous and go swimming outside in the pool, Spenser headed for the kitchen for a couple more apple slices and another juice box, multiple options of what he should do while he waited playing through his head.