You decide nobody outside would ever accept you. You had no friends, nothing but your parents whom you already decided would not accept a daughter for a son. So you say you want to merge with the tree.
The tree says: " then embrace me and let these emotions of longing take over you, then you will become one with me like many girls before you." You do as you are told, embracing the tree with your feelings pure as your new body. You begin to see the bark of the tree start to cover your skin. You're scared and thoughts of suffocation come to mind, but you brush that away as you shut your eyes to focus on becoming one with the tree. After a while you open your eyes again, and darkness greets your vision. You try to move around, but you can't, feeling the bark of the tree encompassing every region of your body like a mold. You even feel it pushing hard against your nether region, thoughts of embarrassment and child-like innocence flood your mind at this feeling.
You stay in this position for what seems like many hours... then days, then years. A eternity feels it has gone by, but all the time, even in this awkward position you feel you're at home. Throughout this time you piss and excrete your feces in complete darkness, though you never smell a thing and you wonder where it all goes. You also sense the consciousness of all the other girls around you, attached to the same tree. You feel the urge to reach out and hug the others as they mentally include their own personal stories of tragedy and grief of being alone with nobody to care for them. You even include your own stories of grief, and somehow you feel like the other girls are hugging you as they express their sympathy to you. " It's okay, we've been there too," they say mentally at the same time. Then one day, you hear mother tree again. " It is time," the mother tree says. Suddenly, you hear a loud cracking sound and a burst of light blinds you.