I felt bad shouting at Karyn mostly because I still essentially had Jon's mind and I felt like I was shouting at my friend.
I rationally knew that I was really Rachel, Jon's mom but occupying this body, with Jon's memories and none of those of Rachel... As Jon's mom I shouldn't have felt bad for shouting at Karyn because as a parent I had an authority of an older person. But yeah, the reality was I didn't feel like anyone other than simply Jon. I also knew that the original... 'soul' of Jon was now in his own mom's body - which really belonged to me. All of that however, was difficult for me to conceptualize. I couldn't help to think of myself as Jon and of the older woman in the house as my mom.
I saw Karyn looking at the ground in shame.
"I'm sorry Rachel." she said "I got carried away. It is really only your call what happens to your son in your body. I still think my wish will teach him some good lessons!"
She looked at my ring bearing hand, took it in hers and then gazed straight at me.
"I only wish you thought of yourself as Rachel and remembered that its really Jon in your real body."
She let go of my hand, as I felt the ring on my finger grow slightly warm. I felt dizzy for a second as a shift took place in my head. All of the sudden, I no longer thought of myself as Jon even though all of my memories belonged to the young man. Not to even mention my body. I didn't know anything about my original life apart from the things my son knew, but at least now I felt a weird certainty that this life wasn't mine. Even if I didn't know what my real life was like.
It was all very confusing but I knew I didn't want to wish for any change of my memory (like regaining my 'Rachel memories'). The perspective of that was just too scary. At least for now.
"You know Karyn this is very confusing." I said "On one hand I understand why Jon made the wish to swap us. I understand because I have the memories of doing it! But on the other hand I do see your point about teaching him a lesson because I bet in my original form I know there is more to being a woman than just having boobs even though I don't remember it now."
I sat down heavily with a sigh.
"I just wish I had it in me to make Jon regret his wish to be me..."
The ring became warm as the accidental wish got granted.