You actually want to talk to her about it. You know for a while that you looked at girls like no actual guy would do. You didn't check them out, didn't look at their boobs or their butts but when you did, you didn't feel any attraction but more a feel of jealousy. You often rather seem to be fascinated with their hair, clothes and make-up but often shook these thoughts out of your head. You go upstairs and knock on your sisters door and you open it. She is lying in just her panties and a loose t-shirt on her bed watching tv, "Hey little bro, what's up? You want to talk?" You shyly nod and sit on her bed, it is weird you never talked to anybody about this but it seems you are about to do now and it makes you really nervous, you don't know what she will think of you.
She seems stunned by your shy behaviour and gestures you to sit on her bed. "What is going on? Did you do something wrong? You are freaking me out right now." You sit on her bed, you don't what to say until you finally come up with something "You know Stacey, right? The girl at my school" you say. She looks abit relieved "Oh yeah, do you like her? I can help you out if you want, it's no..." but you interrupt her, "No it's not that, I actually... kind of...". She starts sitting up and sitting closely next you "What's going on then? Trust me I won't tell anyone". You stutter "I-I kind of want to be like her..."