Empty, but not the kind of emptiness that she had felt when she wanted a man inside her. This was another kind of emptiness. This was the emptiness of an empty womb. "I want to be a mommy" she whispered to herself. She thought of Lex's wife Gina, a Second Puberty woman four months pregnant, and felt a surge of envy.
And yet she didn't think she had made a mistake getting the implant. She needed time. Time to get used to the female body before undergoing the stress of a pregnancy. Time to ensure the financial stability so important in raising a child.
Time to find the right guy. It was important that her baby have a father. She doubted Johnathan was the one. He seemed like a nice guy and skilled lover, but hardly ready to settle down.
Where would she find the right guy? Not at work. She had noticed that Second Puberty people tended to pair off with other Second Puberty people, but it wasn't like a hard and fast rule or anything. She could go online, or join an organization. She had heard women complain about how hard it was to find good guys for years, and now she was in the same situation.