I decided that if I was going to be stuck in a sexless body I might as well use it. And I better put this computer to use, humans are still humans, even without genitals people are still going to be horny.
I looked at my computer's search history, one of the first things I saw was a porn site. I clicked it and saw some amazing nudes. None of the people had genitals of course, but they still looked amazing, there was a lot more focus on the entire body, especially the chest region. There was this amazing image of a girl laid out on a bed, holding her breasts in her hands, even in a world with genitals this would be amazing.
Forgetting my genitals weren't there I reached down and grabbed my crotch, just to be met by the weird smoothness. It felt so strange to feel blank skin where there had always been a hole, there was no more entrance to my body, I felt so incapable. I was horny but there was just no reaction from my body, it was a weird disconnect, like usually I'd be wet at this point but there was no physical arousal at all.
I looked at more hardcore stuff, there were images of people kissing eachother, cuddling naked, touching and massaging different parts of eachother and rubbing their bodies together, but no penatration or anything. Their was a gif of a hot young man playing with a girl's breasts, there was something so hot about seeing them but I wished they could go further.
I noticed myself touching my body in a sort of sensual way. Feeling myself up, touching different parts of myself in an almost sensual way. It wasn't masturbation, it didn't feel like masturbation, but it was all I could do.
I looked at the most hardcore stuff there was, weird fetishes and hentai, but it was no different, people acted out their fetishes, chocked eachother, dominated eachother, whatever turned them on. But there was still no sex, nothing that could yield pleasure.
I looked at a hentai for a bit, both the boy and the girl were very attractive, it was nice to watch them touch eachother. But at the end, when I'd usually bring myself to climax, I just sort of stopped. It was so frustrating, when yesterday I was able to enjoy myself so much today I had nothing. Even my nipples were much less sensitive. Pretty soon I started crying, I'd never get off again. My ovaries would remain forever denied, well actually I didn't even have ovaries.