Walking away from my lamp to my bedroom mirror looking at myself. I’ve been rejected so many times by my crushes and haven’t went on a date. It’s probably why I’m so self conscious about my body and personality , I’m shorter most guys at my age as I’m 5’3. I weigh about 111 lbs, I’m a bit average. My face looks nice, I have beautiful green eyes, my face is covered in freckles, I hate my nose cause how big it is. I have long curly dark brown hair. I hate that I was born male instead of Female, yep being gender dysphoric is so much fun. Why I hate having a boner, and looking at women and feeling jealous from how they look, and that they can wear both men and women clothing without being judged. My personality is terrible as I can be annoying, awkward, and an idiot. The best all is that my friends don’t want to hangout with me, or my burning self hatred of myself. Sometimes I wish I could be someone else