Stopping in front of the dresser, my mind still wandering and attempting to come to terms with what I saw in the dream, I shrugged off my sleepwear and standing naked, I looked down at my genitals, still clearly those of male, and standing naked, realising that Rei was not more than a couple feet from me, standing in front of a second dresser and running a brush through her hair, I glance at her in a surreptitious manner and as I take a tank-top from one of the dresser drawers, I asked, "So you are not bothered by the fact that I am a boy?" in a casual manner.
As I peered at Rei, the teenage girl merely shrugged and commented, "We all go through different phases in our lives. A phase where you act like a boy is nothing really to get bent out of shape over. And besides, I think it actually enriches a young girl's life and gives her more balance. For all those that do get bent out of shape, mostly woman, I noticed, I have only one thing to point out."
And pointing in an offhand manner at my penis and testicles, she stated, "By society standards, that is what makes you a girl. The fact that your genitals are between your legs and that reproductive organs are up inside your body, unlike the male whose genitals are out front along with their reproductive organs."
Setting down her brush, she than pointed at my head and explained, "But biologically, what makes you female is up there, for the most part. A tomboy phase just enriches your understanding and gives you a better perspective, especially when the parts that are biological interact with the parts that society places importance on and you begin the transition from girl to young woman to woman."
Nodding, I glanced once more down at my genitals, understanding, vaguely, that what I saw in my dream the previous evening was me with a girl's genitals. Shuddering, but hiding it with a skillful shifting of my body, I wondered how I was to keep myself from becoming a girl, but at the same time convince Rei that I was a boy, not a tomboy, as I reached into the top drawer and took out a pair of white cotton underwear imprinted with the image of three panda heads across the front.
"You should do something with your hair," Rei announced and nodding, barely paying attention to her, my mind on other things, I accepted the brush she was handing me as I took a pair of Lycra-Spandex pants out from a different drawer.
As I pull on the underwear and then the pants, not bothering to tuck my penis and testicles back, Rei told me, "Meet you downstairs," as she exited the room.
Nodding in an offhand way, I picked up the brush and headed for the bathroom. Inside, I stood before the bathroom mirror, taking in my androgynous appearance, thinking that there was something off about the way I appeared, mostly in the face, but was unable to put into exact wording what. Shrugging, I began to run the comb through my short hair, finding that I liked the way it felt, especially the tingling sensation against my scalp.
Running it down the back of my head, I stopped for a moment at the nape of my neck and then simply continued down, finally stopping midpoint of my back, again liking the way it felt, this time the tingling sensation going through my back. Slowly I continued to do this, gently brushing my hair, always going down the same length and always going back up to the same spot I had started in, my mind wandering as I think about what Rei had said to me and attempting to make sort of connection with why she saw me as a ten year old girl, why I suddenly had breast buds and what about my appearance looked off.
Suddenly stopping, I brush a strand of long, dishwater-blonde hair out of my face and leaning closer, I thought to myself, "Your face is what looks different. Rounder. Feminine. Like Tanya's or Erin's," as I slowly began to braid my hair, realising that it was also my long hair that made my face appear as it did.
Then, I stopped as I peered into the mirror, watching my hands doing automatically what they were doing, almost as if I knew how to braid my hair so it fell in one long plait down, feeling confused because I could not remember my hair being any other length. Holding the end of the braid, I turned away from the mirror and headed back into the main room, where I found several hair ties on Rei's dresser and applying one to the end of my braid, I sit back down on the bed I spent the previous evening sleeping in and let my mind drift, feeling suddenly both confused and rather lost.
"I cannot be turning into a girl," I thought to myself. "It just is not possible, unless you have like surgery and I do not want that, considering that I do not even want to be a girl. I just want to dress like one in private."
Hugging myself, shifting my arms down a bit when they come in contact with my breast buds, I sigh and standing, I start to pace back and forth the length of the room. After a couple minutes, realising that I am hungry, but that I really was not in the mood to share company with somebody else at the moment, I exited the room and headed downstairs, where I located Rei in the Lobby.
As I approach her, I go over in my mind what I want to tell her and instead feel myself shifting positions and when I reach her, I realised that I did want her company and smiling, I asked, "Ready?" and as we exited the building together, I found myself suddenly pitching ideas to her about how we should go about searching the town for any other occupants, what we should do if we encountered anybody else and possibly what we might do after we have searched the town, sure that it would not take us a full day to do so, idly pulling on a bucket hat that Rei handed me as we left and that I knew would complemented my outfit, forgetting for the moment my problems.