I had agreed to the terms of this change without knowing the true nature of it's contract structure. Odd for me a I have always been a careful man when joining anything, never giving my name or address foolishly. Yet this time I did and for it I have become the bull in form of a bad joke.
It is easy to walk in and expect that those around you are considerate of your feelings and ambitions. Now with this situation I am to be the bull, a black bison to revel in a sexual way for the mundane pleasures of some great and lording master.
Even as the change from man to animal was only now beginning Tye was stepping away with thoughts of possible attack. Ah, he knows me as if I were one of the many animals he' and Cedius had sponsered into this captive life. I pray he never learns my true wrath for what he is and represents as he is a sham. If I chose to be a beast among beasts it was my choice then to lead as a bull should.
I feel it even now the stiffening of tight muscle. I feel the building joy of self, a one and singular creature standing above all around me while being one as the same with others like me.
What difference is their when one looks at a herd? Can one from afar see who is the leader and who are the followers? Indeed, as black hide and dark brown hair doth cover me for the cruel life ahead I have but kind feeling for those who made me go this way.
Isn't it strange that one duped into becoming what he has, should someday stand on a hill feeling himself above those who for their own reasons sent him here!
To be alone in a crowd is the most terrible thing! A part with those around but seperated by a thin point of view. Rules be what rules are they act as judge and jury without any to step forward and tell to all what was the great wrong. Indeed and in fact the host of those who like me do not know of these rules which govern our very exsistence in this realm.
Erg, now pains have begun as the change has taken on by most basic frame. The bones of what was me must now change. It is deemed that I should stand upon all fours, content to bow to the world around. Ah but I shall hold my Bison head up with pride for what I stood for and did as does to this very day!
You too may be as I someday, replaced by one younger, stronger, but filled with the passion to stand above and judge those who are your peers.
Hands are now hooves, I bend down to ready myself to graze as one should and must as a Bovine of the grasslands. A shudder as what little human left is quickly covered by the flesh and hair of this what I am to be from now on and to the end of my time.
The van arrives and two big men come with ropes to tie me tight and deliver me to a place different from my home. Soon the word home will have little meaning as I roam with that herd from place to place seeking what none of us will ever truly find.
I hold no hate for Cedius in making me what I am, for it was me who chose so foolishly. He and Tye, Minerva or Skye they are to what they wished to be, I even I can not wish less for me.